When the relationship Judith Lucy thought was The One broke down, her world fell apart. Not only was she single again and about to turn fifty but now that she didn’t have a partner to buy gourmet sausages with at Farmers' Markets, she realised how much her relationship had enabled her to avoid dealing with: everything from her brother’s death to her doubts about doing comedy in an increasingly serious world situation.Why was she so floored? Did all these problems have something in common? Judith went back to the start to try and work that out.In her most candid and insightful book yet, Judith looks at her family and relationships to understand how despite being a feminist, her hopes and expectations have been shaped by men - whether it was thinking that she needed Mr Right to ‘complete her’ or struggling for male approval in most aspects of her life, including her work.Having diagnosed the disease, Judith sets about healing. She explores other ways to get outside herself and make the most of the time she has left - community, volunteering, climate action and the natural world. And although things will doubtless keep going wrong (like covid!), it turns out … she’s fine.