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John was a pastor, a husband, and a father-until the secret he'd spent a lifetime suppressing came crashing to the surface.
Raised in poverty and marked by abuse, he found refuge in the Pentecostal church, where holiness demanded obedience and salvation required surrender. But when his sexuality emerged at twelve, faith became a war between who he was and who he was told to be.
Believing that God would heal him if he stayed faithful, he married young, became a father, and rose to the pulpit, preaching the gospel that condemned him. A decade later, after removing his straight brother from life support so he could die of AIDS, the fragile scaffolding of John's life gave way.
He lost his marriage, his ministry, and the only world he'd ever known. Cast out by the church he once served, he fled and begged God to let him die. But death never came-only the slow, sacred work of becoming whole.
Straight to Hell is a memoir of collapse and reconstruction-from religious indoctrination to spiritual authenticity, from shame to self-acceptance, from exile to homecoming. It's also a love story between a father and his daughters, the story of a man discovering grace outside the church, and of finally being loved without pretense.
Both harrowing and redemptive, Straight to Hell speaks to anyone who's had to lose their world to find themselves.
For fans of Boy Erased, Educated, and This Is How It Always Is, this is more than a memoir.
It's a confession, a reckoning, and a call to courage.
