Applying J.L. Austin

What are early elements or features of your relationship to the idea of Blackness vis a vis your self-identification do you recall in language?

How did/do you negotiate it through language? (Could be to yourself, and/or to others) In this context, did you feel like an outsider or an insider?

What mitigated this feeling if anything?

Would there be anything that you would' ve done/said differently?

Would this change make everyone feel better or only you/a few? (No judgment, only to get a deeper understanding of the situation.) This is to more fully understand the total speech environment.