I cry and I laugh about all the things, the craziest things that happened in my past. Everything is spinning. How long will the trip on this roller coaster last? Iam in this new world now, all by myself, and things are coming at me so very fast. I just need a mask. These tears of joy you see are about a deep love from my past, a claim on my heart that will forever last, something I will just have to endure until I pass. This new condition is about the craziest things that have happened in my past. I say craziest because some people will never have a love that will last. This story is about my future and my past.