Newmarket and Arabia: An Examination of the Descent of Racers and Coursers (1873)

Will Christina ever make the right choices in her life, or is there something wrong with her? Is she indeed normal and all of her problems are exaggerated in the caves of her mind? She has been looking for the ideal man and for unconditional love all her life, but to no avail. The biggest part of her life has been, after all, a collection of bad decisions, which have caused her pain and agonizing sorrow, and people who used and abused her and left her devoid of any human emotions. It was during this painful journey that she thought she found her soulmate, only to realize, after the afterglow, that this too was the wrong decision. Now, alone, middle-aged, and filled with despair and guilt, she smiles endlessly on the outside while her inner soul grasps to reach whatever life there is left for her to live.