Ned Stutman’s career prosecuting Nazi war criminals for the U.S. Department of Justice forced him to confront one of the darkest periods of humanity. His most courageous act, however, may have been facing his own death. Through his sustained struggle with illness, Ned remained passionately engaged in the world, finding humor and joy even into his final hours. He wrote to family and friends about the ironies of life, about unexpected kindness and gratitude, and about the spiritual and magical importance of love. This moving memoir is a celebration of life and a reminder to be grateful for our time on earth.

“On Saturday the doctors will be ‘harvesting’ my stem cells. In this context, the use of the word ‘harvest’ seems odd. It conjures up little combines plowing through my blood collecting, baling, and loading my stems cells on flatbed trucks while doctors in John Deere hats sing ‘Oklahoma.’ (excerpt from Facing Up)

"Ned’s jokes allowed us to view everyday events and people with a new appreciation and to see the joy and humor in them.” (excerpt from Forward by Congressman Henry Waxman)

Anyone struggling with finding joy, fulfillment, and equanimity must read this poignant, uplifting, humorous account. Ned’s vision can help transform your world-view.