At night, I was forced back into the house for dinner and then followed the routine bath and going to bed. I remember feeling so alone and disconnected from everyone there. I was an orphan amongst them all. I couldn’t relate to them, their experience and their interaction they had with each other. I was blonde with green eyes while they had blue or brown eyes and dark hair. I figured I was probably adopted and that would explain why my mother was so spiteful towards me. Many a night, I would sit by the bedroom window, pull my blind over my head and look at the stars. I would talk to the stars knowing others were there, listening to me, those who really knew me, my real family, asking and begging them to let me go back home. I wanted nothing to do with this life, I couldn’t understand what was expected of me. These strangers that kept me confused and scared. I wanted to feel whole and loved again, I knew that on the other side of this dimension, amongst the stars, where my soul would be reunited to my higher-self, I could feel loved in the presence of mother/father God. This excerpt from the book gives you an insight that I was not a child like any other. After a difficult childhood and a tumultuous adolescence, I try to escape but I am pursued by my demons, my fears and a belief system that continues to sabotage all my efforts for a balanced life. This book explains the journey of a human being who must forgive herself and continue to strive forward despite her missteps and failures. I share my story in order to inspire you so that you know that you are not alone in your quest and that there is hope. The book explains my journey, my learning and how you can do the same with your life. An honest book that allows you to be flawed and to love you fully. Each concept of learning is explained with concrete examples that facilitate the integration of the spiritual work accomplished.
