At the age of eighteen, Carla van Raay entered a convent to devote her life to God. By thirty–four she was earning her living as a prostitute. As a child, Carla van Raay experienced a trauma that changed her for ever. Burdened by the weight of this terrible secret, all she wanted to do was survive. Life as a nun promised refuge from the outside world. Carla hoped to find love and understanding within the convent walls. Instead she became enmeshed in a complex system of regulations that drove her to the brink of madness. Finally released from her vows, she escaped back into the ‘real’ world. A hasty marriage and separation left Carla with a daughter to support. With few professional skills to rely on from her years as a nun, she turned to another age–old profession – prostitution. She worked as an escort to learn the ropes, then struck out on her own, setting up a massage service. God’s Callgirl was born. When the seamier side of the business eventually began to assert itself, Carla embarked on a journey to uncover the dark secret of her past.